Thanks, everyone, for both your help and encouragement with diapers/nappies as well as your lovely support re: comments from others...
Unfortunately this is not a terribly upbeat blog, either. May cannot come fast enough. Feel free to bypass the following whinge:
I'm not a happy camper this week. I don't know if it's being pregnant - and more tired than usual, combined with ongoing sickness, which I am really, really sick off now (no pun intended) - but I am feeling thoroughly overwhelmed with work. I almost wish that I would come down with something so that I could stay at home and hibernate, or, in the very least, so I could catch up. AS it is I'm in the midst of putting together a power point for a guest lecture I'm giving tomorrow morning. As I do it I'm looking at the stack of long LONG exam essays I have to grade this weekend (50, to be exact), as well as the notes and grades I have to write up for another class... and, oh, four letters of reference.
I am of course not alone with all this work. It's a busy time of year in academia. But I am really well and truly overwhelmed by it all. I don't want to do any of it. The thought of driving to campus tomorrow morning for this lecture just makes me want to cry. I could quite easily give up work and be a stay at home mama... at least for a bit, anyway. As I snuck in a walk late this afternoon, I thought about how wonderful it would be to focus on one thing (i.e. parenting) as opposed to a trillion different things that one has to contend with at work. I am feeling very lucky that classes end soon... though did I mention that I am teaching two summer classes... hopefully they'll finish before the baby comes :)
I've also found myself whimsically wishing that we lived close by to family.. or, in the very least, that we lived someplace where one of us had grown up, a place with childhood friends and easy connections which are familiar and easy. I've a little envious, even, of people who live close to their extended kin, who have their relatives popping over, offering to help! I think the poppet is bringing into sharp relief the fact that Rich and I are really not from here, and whilst we love it (and, goodness, our friends are just so wonderful) I do feel the melancholy of feeling as though I (we?) don't have the depth of belonging that I might like.
Well, this is cheery :)
I have some more positive blogs brewing... I promise!