Today I enjoyed(?) my first vomit free day in almost THREE MONTHS. Woo hoo. It wasn't without awful nausea. Yesterday I experimented by not taking my anti-nausea medications - which had led to a day of continual sickness - and I woke up at 2am feeling sick to my stomach. I was glad to have my meds by my bed, and in my dehydrated, misery stricken state I gobbled it down as fast as I could. Many of you will know and appreciate how much I dislike any form of medications, and so the decision to take a class B drug whilst pregnant was quite tortuous. I soon realized, though, that without the meds it would be difficult to keep anything down, including water.
Sad that yesterday's med-free day didn't work out, I did fall back to sleep eventually and woke up a few hours later feeling not so queasy. The dehydration, though, is never pleasant, so Rich kindly got up at 6am and laid out some orange squash (an English drink) and some water on the table next to the couch. I stumbled to my now-regular spot on the sofa and managed to re-hydrate, somewhat.
Rich and I have a new Sunday routine which entails going to the gym together followed by brunch. I used to spend a lot of time grading papers in Panera Bread, and as a result frequently ate their vegetable soup. When first pregnant it was one of the few things I could eat. My friend Dave bought me 2 big vats of the soup, kindly thinking that I could eat it at home, Alas, I was horribly sick that first night, and since then I haven't been able to even drive past Panera, much less go in there. So it was with some surprise that last week, for our brunch, I started to crave one of their bagels. I knew it was a veggie soup-free day there, so took the plunge. Again, today, I fancied a bagel and also their salad with hummus...
Oddly I cannot touch hummus when it's been in our fridge. Frankly, anything I make - even my favourite salads - invariably comes back up when I prepare it and eat it at home. It's as though I have some Pavlovian response... it's very strange. In Panera I gobbled down a big salad with hummus, and at home the thought of a salad - with the same romaine lettuce and any type of hummus - makes me heave. The only foods that seem safe at home to eat are various fruits - though not all fruits.
For instance, pre-pregnancy, I ate 2 cups of strawberries a day, at least one cup of raspberries, and usually a cup of blueberries. Indeed I was hopelessly addicted to berries of all persuasions. Yet now I can't touch them unless I'm 'tasting' them in Whole Foods... I also can't touch my trusty oats/oatbran/flaxseed combination. A breakfast I've eaten everyday for at least two years.
I'll have to write another post about the foods I've been craving, but suffice to say that I have been - and continue - to battle major food aversions... including ALL protein sources, most leafy green vegetables, and even Luna bars (which I'd been surviving on the first few weeks of pregnancy).
For now, though, I'll celebrate my first vomit free day.. A day where I managed to keep down a leafy green vegetable, and a day when I didn't vomit all evening. The nausea is a bit unrelenting, and, unfortunately, the anti-nausea meds don't take it away. I did learn, though, that without them the nausea and vomiting is so much worse.
When my sister Fiona told me that she was 16 weeks pregnant before her sickness got better, I almost wept. I was only 9 weeks pregnant at that point and honestly thought that I could take no more. But here I am at close to 17 weeks - and I've sort of gotten used to the sickness. But, boy, how nice it is not to be sick today... I hope that this is truly the beginning of the end.